Title: Imaginary Friend ;; Prologue
Author: Caroline :: rain_calamity
Rating: PG for now.
Pairing: Ryan/Brendon.
POV: Brendon's.
Summary: In my fantasies, I could play violin masterpieces and pass geometry theorems tests. When my eyes were focused on the ceiling, I could drive motorcycles, ride flamingos, and hitch a ride with a traveling circus. In the safety of my own mind, I could search a haunted house with nothing but a flashlight and a prayer.
Disclaimer: yeah, dont own anything, unfortunately. 
( “So, no friends, huh?” the devil-Brendon said, half-smirking. He plopped down to a sitting position, pinching my shirt between his fingers carefully.  )

The Creature : Part Three.
   If You Think You Belong Enough.
           [ a   f i c t i o n   s t o r y  rain_calamity ]

The Creature : Part Two
            In Search Of Inspiration
                   [ a fiction story by rain_calamity]

How many total songs?
1582

Sort by Song Title. What's the first song?
(Hey Mister DJ) Send My Love To The Dancefloor - Cobra Starship

Sort by Song Title. What's the last song?
Zero - Smashing Pumpkins

Sort by Time. What's the shortest song?
Playground - Pray For The Soul Of Betty

Sort by album. What's the first song?
I'll Be There For You - The Rembrandts

Sort by album. What's the last song?
I'm A Believer - Smash Mouth

Sort by Play Count. What are the top ten songs?
1. Samson - Regina Spektor
2. Oedipus - Regina Spektor 
3. Fidelity - Regina Spektor
4. Consequence Of Sounds - Regina Spektor
5. Iris - Goo Goo Dolls
6. Braille - Regina Spektor
7. Failure By Design - Brand New
8. Over My Head (Cable Car) - The Fray
9. Rootless Tree - Damien Rice
10. Dark Blue - Jack's Mannequin

Sort by Last Played. What are the top 10 songs?
1. Let This Go - Paramore
2. Beautiful Love - The Afters
3. I Constantly Thank God For Esteban - Panic! At The Disco 
4. (Hey Mister DJ) Send My Love To The Dancefloor - Cobra Starship
5. X Amount Of Words - Blue October
6. Karma Police - Radiohead 
7. Wait For You - Elliot Yamin 
8. Stand Inside Your Love - Smashing Pumpkins
9. With Or Without You - U2
10. Hotel Song - Regina Spektor

Search for "Death". How many and which is your favorite?
13
The Birth And Death Of A Day - Explosions In The Sky

Sort by Time. What's the longest song?
Sleep Don't Weep - Damien Rice

Search for "Sex". How many and which is your favorite?
3
Sex Changes - The Dresden Dolls

Search for "Love". How many and which is your favorite?
88
You Don't Know What Love Is (You Just Do As You're Told) - The White Stripes

so, okay, i doubt anyone cares (& i unfortunately donno how to make those fancy "icon journals") but i made some icons. =] um, i know i dont take the time to make any friends on here, but if you use any of these, please credit me. thanks.

they're mostly panic! at the disco icons, predictably. --prays the lj cut works-- sorry if they suck.

& i couldve sworn that i got over this last time.
that i was past this, over myself.
what's there to be sad about when youre never upset?
what's there to lose when youre the one holding your hand?
it's lost in the ocean, underneath every wave.
every piece of nothing. everything i couldn't save.
& it's hard to be lost when i'm not meant to be.
it's hard to pretend someone's here with me.

& it's all i can do, just to keep things in line.
it's all i can do, just to break it, oh why?
oh how am i lost when there's nobody there now?
how am i gone when i dont even care now?
'cause it's all i can do to stop thinking this through.
& i could've sworn there would be "me and you".



it was supposed to be fine, it was supposed to be over.
like the song after spring, the snow after winter.
how do you live when he's living his life?
what's left of your heart when you give it away?
it's dead like last year, like the pen in my hand,
when you wrote my name here, wrote my name in the sand.
& it's hard to be lost when youre trying to be.
it's hard to pretend you existed with me.

& if youre feeling upset, you can tell me your name.
if youre feeling upset, i'll try to cry over you.
if youre feeling upset, i'll care about what you said.
if youre feeling upset, i'll keep you inside my head.

i've never loved nobody fully.
always one foot on the ground.

love&snakevenom.
myspace blog i wrote a little while ago, figured i should post it here.
even if only for me.
i know, a little palahniuk-esque. but hey, ive been reading him a lot lately. SUE ME.

And suppose I never met you.
Suppose we never fell in love.
Suppose I never ever let you kiss me so sweet and so soft.

nothing compares to a quiet evening alone.

HOME FROM OCEAN CITY.
thinking about posting some of my stories ... not sure though.
not that anybody would read them, but yeah.
kay. its late. im gonna sleep now; just wanted to update.

let's be more than this.

tonight is all about "we miss you."

hey. so ... sorry its taken me a million years to post again (and this post cant be too long cuz i bet my parents can hear me typing through the bedroom wall), but ive been ... occupied. with SUMMER. eh, or just being lazy i suppose. or writing. yeah.
anywhooo ... lately come to the conclusion that i am, in fact, emo. and yes, ive always hated that word and how they use it for people who cut themselves and all, but i dont do that shit and i still considering myself in that label ... to me, emo means "emotional". sure, it may be a fashion style and all, but i try not to think of it like that ...
oh, ADDICTED to the show Lost. Matthew Fox, i love you. seriously. marry me right now.
EDIT: wow, i dont know if anybody is gonna read this anymore, but im so surprised that people actually commented on this. like, im sorry, i really am ... i was being "whorey" i guess as somebody put it, and i apologize; after i read keltie's reply about the song, i actually respect her a teensy bit more. i guess it was stupid to post something like this ... but i dont really go on livejournal for friends so i didnt think anybody would ever read this, haha. i guess i should've thought of that before i posted something on the INTERNET. good job, caroline. =D haha. anyways, yeah, sorry.
these friends are golden.